mudslides and fish

i think i know why the first few days (and even now) can be difficult: we've often joked that her dimples have saved her life on a number of occasions and it's not that far from the truth. i think the chief difficulty in maintaining your energy toward babies is that they are little tiny strangers who cannot show you any sense of emotional attachment. their needs are primal and basic sustenance needs. they cannot demonstrate any affection. even new born puppies nuzzle you or lick your face. having a newborn baby is more like having a fish.

Number 2 Update (no need to read the below unless you are medically interested)
well, in case you are interested, Schuyler finally demonstrated her output capacity in the chocolate pudding department (3 diaper's worth within 15 seconds). i have never seen the like. she has maintained her weight but not put any on because she is a "lazy, ineffective suckler" according to the books. i would also add the words "very cute" in there. so we are going to supplement with expressed milk for three feeds per the doctor's orders to see if she gains weight