deja vu all over again... but better

so it's 2:07am on Sunday and Charlie is coming up on four days old. It's strange how different it is this time. On the one hand, i'd forgotten what it is like to survive on so little sleep (let alone how his mum feels, surviving on less AND having the life literally sucked out of you). On the other hand, we know where this is headed and that makes the pain much, much more tolerable. I think a lot about the Chilean miners who have been trapped underground for ages now and how the rescue workers made immediate efforts to routinize their behaviour and get them to add touches of civilisation such as shaving. One of the keys to surviving such a long time in horrible circumstances mentally, they said, was the realization that there was literally light at the end of the tunnel - they would eventually be free. We will eventually sleep a full night again. When i look at Charlie, I see the future and that makes it all worth it.

He doesn't sleep like his sis but that's not such a bad thing since he is feeding the way nature intended. It is so odd for us and i'm not sure we actually believe that - in Schuyler word's - "eating boobies" can sustain life but from the ample diaper output, it's clearly working. He's been snacky, eating every half hour or so which is not cool but he just slept for three hours, so right now, he rocks.

His cone head has subsided (which will be useful if male pattern baldness follows the maternal line) and he's becoming quite a handsome little chap. Schuyler is intensely interested in petting her "little sisters" (she is finally correcting herself to "little bother" which may or may not be accurate). She is having the usual mixed feelings and, unsually, didn't want to go out to Rustico with Kim and her dad because she thought we were going to abandon her with Kim again (which is very unusual behaviour because Kim and "Wardy Baby" are two of her favourite all time playmates). She also stalls at bedtime and asked to "say bon nuit a the baby" three separate occasions when we were supposed to be finishing our reading. She's a great little girl and here's hoping Charlie takes her lead and is as interested in her and they become lifelong friends. I can't think of anything better.